Facepalm Life

Dear God: I want to thank you publicly, so that my words can absorb all the strength of the world, so they can get to you faster and stronger. I know I have failed, and even though this blog is to promote my book, that as been slipping on everybodys eyes.  But somehow ,on this last days i have seen the dance of your perfect planos. How things are even better than the prayers i did. Hope I won't let down,  well...  Too much!  Keep protecting me. I hope that this post can open some hearts and gather more followers to the good side. And more prayers to feed the world. Thank you R G

You know when, suddenly, there is no noise? No birds, no wind, usually, in movies, it means that something terrible is coming. A huge catastrophe that changes the main course of the story. I which i could say, to you guys: "remember the girls trip? When they got the sails up and the ship just slid through the waters?" Well, i can't, The Amazons are not on a bookstore near you. So, getting back to the silence, i'm so scared. After new years eve, something in my heart changed, like 2018 would mean something to me, and Facepalm Life would be made of laughs. You know, when your funniest friend does something incredibly stupid, that someone that you cant just stop laughing when you are near. I wanted that, to right about that. i can be very funny. Aika and Medb are the mirrors of that. Those two got me laughing out loud, as if they had stolen the story from me. My dream is that, from today on, i could be the hero of my own story, and all that 12 warriors born out of me, c...

I don't know if can say that today is a happy day or a less sad day, perhaps. Is my life finally changing, step by step, piece by piece. Well, my life is like a puzzle with a million pieces, it looks impossible to put it together but if you try, if somehow you start. My problem is that the wind keeps coming, blowing unmercifully , I've tried to get up so many times , that i'm tired and almost without any other perspective , and the years kept passing by. Whats funny is that what my personal documents say, doesn't represent not even an inch of who i am. Physically, a look much younger, what concerns about energy, i'm like a bull, and on the gym i'm get better everyday, my Personal Trainer says that i'm in an incredible  shape. But there's another thing, my brain is constantly asking for more, is crazy to embrace  knowledge. In Portugal we have a saying, something like this: Old donkey doesn't learn languages!" Well , this old donkey learns , run...

Dear God: For all my life, specially when I'm impatient and impulsive, for that I'm deeply sorry. For all the time I've should have prayed instead of crying, for that I'm sorry. For all the time I forgot your teachings , for that I'm sorry. I'm asking you now, publicly ,empty handed to give a chance to write about happy day's. Please make amends in my life, for all the things I didn't ask for verbally, but better than anyone you can read in my heart. For all the changes I've made if it wasn't for you, for all the pain I endured because I had some light inside me. I know your timing is different from ours, but I need you now. Amen R G

I'm not a young girl anymore, anyway  I spent my live adjusting to solitude, is it to late to dream about the day that I would finally could be taken care off?  I don't have any maternal instinct what so everbut how could i have learned it if half My childhood was spent taking care of my mother's câncer.  I see that on animals that leave their babies behind cause they didn't had the knowledge if somehow something happened to their moms. Does it work that way with us too?  I see myself like that cool aunt, but haven't growned in my heart to any other business. Maybe I'm so needy that I have to get over that.  Creating, living on an imaginary world sometimes it helps. I can be whoever I wanna be, I can dream I have tons of friends. That's what made easy for me to get involved with "The Amazons", the dream of living surrounded with loyalty ,friendship, courage, adventure.  So,  I guess that helping me, would also feed my life, would get me out of my d...