Facepalm Life

Hi guys! didn't forgot about the blog or my dream of  releasing "The Amazons" to the world, but a facepalm life is an up and down life. This week was a roller coaster, between quitting and not having one second to  myself , you can imagine how i got, emotionally speaking. But i did it, i took the leap of faith. I took the bet that crossed my path. You know, i never could rely on friends, family, when somehow i got happy because someone would say that it would help me, guess what, they never did, nothing happens. When i out on my own, i always bring home some kind of result, but still, it feels lonely. That's probably why i have a hard time trusting people, they actually never made any difference, in my life, on a closer circle. I kind of hope that, with the book, something could be different, that i could see a good heart somewhere. I've read in one of my favorite books - "When the student is ready , the master will come". I kind of hoped that was the ...

Hi guys, so i think that the last post of gratitude i've written,  may have left you confused. "How can she complain,  of her Facepalm life, and then say that God has been rewarding her,  better probably asked for? Well, you are right, I would probably have asked the same question. The point is that, have been really, really down and lonely. All the mistakes, all the drugs, whatever you can name, where in front of me. Something inside, allowed me, at least,  to keep going. Maybe that's why I stop smoking exactly when I wanted to.  I thought to my self that I wasn't going to do that anymore and I didn't,  as easy as that. I don't know what was protecting my good judgment, at that point, but what it concerns work, family, love, friendship, money, nothing, I spent my life surviving. Faith as been providing me with some ray's of sunshine on my face lately ,because I have been learning with "someone special", maybe it was where I got the courage to wr...

Dear God: I want to thank you publicly, so that my words can absorb all the strength of the world, so they can get to you faster and stronger. I know I have failed, and even though this blog is to promote my book, that as been slipping on everybodys eyes.  But somehow ,on this last days i have seen the dance of your perfect planos. How things are even better than the prayers i did. Hope I won't let down,  well...  Too much!  Keep protecting me. I hope that this post can open some hearts and gather more followers to the good side. And more prayers to feed the world. Thank you R G

You know when, suddenly, there is no noise? No birds, no wind, usually, in movies, it means that something terrible is coming. A huge catastrophe that changes the main course of the story. I which i could say, to you guys: "remember the girls trip? When they got the sails up and the ship just slid through the waters?" Well, i can't, The Amazons are not on a bookstore near you. So, getting back to the silence, i'm so scared. After new years eve, something in my heart changed, like 2018 would mean something to me, and Facepalm Life would be made of laughs. You know, when your funniest friend does something incredibly stupid, that someone that you cant just stop laughing when you are near. I wanted that, to right about that. i can be very funny. Aika and Medb are the mirrors of that. Those two got me laughing out loud, as if they had stolen the story from me. My dream is that, from today on, i could be the hero of my own story, and all that 12 warriors born out of me, c...

I don't know if can say that today is a happy day or a less sad day, perhaps. Is my life finally changing, step by step, piece by piece. Well, my life is like a puzzle with a million pieces, it looks impossible to put it together but if you try, if somehow you start. My problem is that the wind keeps coming, blowing unmercifully , I've tried to get up so many times , that i'm tired and almost without any other perspective , and the years kept passing by. Whats funny is that what my personal documents say, doesn't represent not even an inch of who i am. Physically, a look much younger, what concerns about energy, i'm like a bull, and on the gym i'm get better everyday, my Personal Trainer says that i'm in an incredible  shape. But there's another thing, my brain is constantly asking for more, is crazy to embrace  knowledge. In Portugal we have a saying, something like this: Old donkey doesn't learn languages!" Well , this old donkey learns , run...

Dear God: For all my life, specially when I'm impatient and impulsive, for that I'm deeply sorry. For all the time I've should have prayed instead of crying, for that I'm sorry. For all the time I forgot your teachings , for that I'm sorry. I'm asking you now, publicly ,empty handed to give a chance to write about happy day's. Please make amends in my life, for all the things I didn't ask for verbally, but better than anyone you can read in my heart. For all the changes I've made if it wasn't for you, for all the pain I endured because I had some light inside me. I know your timing is different from ours, but I need you now. Amen R G

I'm not a young girl anymore, anyway  I spent my live adjusting to solitude, is it to late to dream about the day that I would finally could be taken care off?  I don't have any maternal instinct what so everbut how could i have learned it if half My childhood was spent taking care of my mother's câncer.  I see that on animals that leave their babies behind cause they didn't had the knowledge if somehow something happened to their moms. Does it work that way with us too?  I see myself like that cool aunt, but haven't growned in my heart to any other business. Maybe I'm so needy that I have to get over that.  Creating, living on an imaginary world sometimes it helps. I can be whoever I wanna be, I can dream I have tons of friends. That's what made easy for me to get involved with "The Amazons", the dream of living surrounded with loyalty ,friendship, courage, adventure.  So,  I guess that helping me, would also feed my life, would get me out of my d...

I got to tell you guys that I've written a book before. Published by a no name brand, who doesn't offer you any kind of support. They produce any book without supervision, when you get happy when you see a cover with your name on it. Nowadays, everything counts to squeeze the money you don´t have out of you. Anyway, when i look at it now, i'm kind of embarrassed by it. That shit is awefull! You can say that it was a learning process , but how can a book like "The Nomad" grow into "The Amazons". Maybe it was a matter of timing, maturity, but please, don't ever read that first pancake. I'm going to tell you a little secret: I think that "The Amazons" would be a better movie then a book. There is to much action, dialogs, color, buildings... i'm in love with it. Is there someone out there to give me a chance. Sincerely yours RG

"I saw a picture of the goddess, online, that really caught my eye. She looks happy and surrounded by her favorite animals. For the first time, there is also a wolf. I can´t stop looking at it. Artemis is focusing right back at me, I’m totally mesmerized. My body is trembling, I’m getting feverish again. The purple of my arm is becoming black and it’s moving as if my skin is alive. It hurts, but sometimes, depending on the movement, I feel relieved. Some sort of energy it’s taking over me, I’m getting scared. I´m going to stop writing to you and call an ambulance. Artemis is looking right through me! I can´t feel anything, only stings on the black wrist. It’s growing?  It´s moving like something had crawled underneath my skin. It hurts! God please help me! What is this? " "The Amazons" RG