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Hi guys, so i think that the last post of gratitude i've written,  may have left you confused. "How can she complain,  of her Facepalm life, and then say that God has been rewarding her,  better probably asked for?
Well, you are right, I would probably have asked the same question. The point is that, have been really, really down and lonely. All the mistakes, all the drugs, whatever you can name, where in front of me. Something inside, allowed me, at least,  to keep going. Maybe that's why I stop smoking exactly when I wanted to.  I thought to my self that I wasn't going to do that anymore and I didn't,  as easy as that. I don't know what was protecting my good judgment, at that point, but what it concerns work, family, love, friendship, money, nothing, I spent my life surviving. Faith as been providing me with some ray's of sunshine on my face lately ,because I have been learning with "someone special", maybe it was where I got the courage to write here. Maybe my life is about to change, I don't know. It's a lot at the same time, emotionally almost kill's me. Good and bad, like a lightning coming from nowhere. May thus be only the beginning. May facepalm make you guys smile. May "the Amazons" allow you to travel as much as I did.

Sincerely yours
R G